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killing_kurare ([personal profile] killing_kurare) wrote2016-07-04 03:29 pm

Buffy - Buffy/Tara - Imperfect feelings, futile grief

Title: Imperfect feelings, futile grief
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Pairing: Buffy/Tara
Wordcount: 279
Rating: M
AN: Title from Epica, "Illusive Consensus"
Challenge: Femslash Today Porn Battle - comfort





They were both crying when it first started. Sometimes they think that it is just because of their sadness this happened at all.
Buffy lost her best friend who has been like a sister to her.
Tara lost her best friend, her lover, her soulmate.
And all because of a gunshot that wasn’t even meant for Willow.
Both women feel lonely and lost, but knowing that there is someone else who feels the exact same way helps and binds together.
Everyone tries to comfort Tara in their own way, but the only one who really can is Buffy. She manages to get lost in the Slayer’s touch, in her caresses, and cries out when Buffy fucks her desperately, when she forces two fingers inside of her, three and then four, forcing Tara to feel good, to feel whole, to feel something.
And when Tara has come violently and gasps and shudders, her inner walls clenching around Buffy’s fingers, she can forget for only a second that this is not the woman she loves but someone who tries to make Tara cope with the hard reality.
“Was it good?” Buffy asks eagerly and with a shaky voice (but what she’s actually asking is ‘Did I manage to fill the empty space inside you?’).
And Tara smiles, though tears wet her eyes. “Yes, it was good.”
Then Buffy’s lip trembles and she crawls up to Tara, rests her head against the other woman’s chest. It’s Tara’s turn now to fill the empty space Willow inhabited once, and she starts to caress Buffy’s hair soothingly, telling her that it’s going to be alright (though she knows that it’s a lie).

cmk418: (BtVS-Willow-Tara)

[personal profile] cmk418 2016-07-04 05:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Lovely and sad.

I particularly loved this bit, "forcing Tara to feel good, to feel whole, to feel something." It really shows their desperation. Well done!

[identity profile] killing-kurare.livejournal.com 2016-07-04 08:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you very much, I'm glad you liked it :D

[identity profile] red-satin-doll.livejournal.com 2016-07-05 06:08 am (UTC)(link)
I have a VERY soft spot for Buffy/Tara! and I can imagine them united in grief for the woman who meant to much to both of them (and the scenario is no less plausible than canon.)

My favorite line:

(but what she’s actually asking is ‘Did I manage to fill the empty spot inside you?’).

More, please?

[identity profile] killing-kurare.livejournal.com 2016-07-05 07:54 am (UTC)(link)
I think this is the first time I wrote them together, but the theme fit them quite good :) And I'm very happy you like it :D

I can't promise anything, but I will consider this pair a little more in the future, so I'm sure something will come around eventually :3
Thank you! <3

[identity profile] killing-kurare.livejournal.com 2016-07-09 09:32 am (UTC)(link)
Lol, that graphic is adorable xD

[identity profile] swan-secrets.livejournal.com 2016-07-06 10:10 am (UTC)(link)
Really powerful piece. Nicely done!

[identity profile] killing-kurare.livejournal.com 2016-07-06 10:28 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you :D